Sunday, March 23, 2008

Segregation ambition, forever!

My parents want to get my butt married but I'm not fond of these Indian girls. Why? I don't like the surrounding people who only like me for race and my dad. The family girl's excuse is that an economic-climbing Indian man does not like another economic-climbing Indian woman? Because a man has to impress a woman and not the other way around. I find that a hard-working Indian man likes a hard-working, Indian woman. They believe in the ambitious, Anglo system of making money with two instead of one. The problem is hard-working Indian women don't like other hard-working Indian women like moms, siblings, and female peers. They put pressure on the ambitious boy to go for the passive girl because elder females don't want a female to do better than her unless she going to care and nurse for the weak male (me).

(Aarthi, you lazy bitch, get those educated girls some Indian men who are PHD with moneys. They are out there, go find it. Damn it, you are a lawyer who works off for your white bosses. Yet, you can't help Brindhi and every other good educated, Indian girl to get a man. These girls are working their butts off for their masters and Phd's and you can't help? Is there female competive issues going on with you? Showing that picture of your baby son to my face; yet you can't do the same for your family. You need to be beat and beaten hard.)

On to the issue. I have an Americanized family. They are conservative people who believe in the American way but when it comes to relationships when they want some girl from India, who has Westernized compatibility. Bullshit, man. To me, I'm American when it comes to girls. I don't believe in cheating. The girls maybe stronger, more intelligent, and everything else but I'm here and my loyalty is with them. If the girls don't want me, it is time for me to leave or find another place. But I'm not bringing an Indian here. When I tell my father and his buddies, what I want, the George Wallace shit goes up. Integration of church and state when it comes to marriage in the U.S.A.

In my family defense and others, marriage is rigidly segregated by race and faith. George Wallace should have done the speech about marriage first because it is still the biggest institution that is segregated. I'm not sure about education, housing, and jobs but look at dating sites as well as marriage sites and how government and corporations put money into them. Segregation makes money. I have tried the segregation way but it doesn't allow me to grow. Instead, it puts me in a middle-man position of vulnerability and dishonesty within the group (Did you know bout his mom being bi?).

I hate Indian men and women who rub that segregation to my face when they are successful at it. I can't compartment my friends, groups, and social units and then wait for an outsider to bail me out like that preacher in "Medea Goes to Jail". Another words, I'm fucked. Those segregationists Indian models don't appeal to me because there are so many secrets to hide which I can't handle and the IKKD (Indian Ku Klux Dependent) can either expose you which makes you do things reluctantly for good or bad. These bullies will jockey for position and if things go bad, they have a white sponsor to bail them. Do I? Plays with your mind and emotion.

Of course, if it is faith based, it is supposed to be okay. But a close examination reveals this: If I saw a picture of a dark skinned woman and liked her; no play for me. She is too dark. What if the girl is pudgy but with a great personality and loves sports? Nope. The Aryan ideal is maintained even amongst faith based marriage and dating sites. This causes internal segregation based on race within a faith. I have seen this in other faiths such as Christians, Muslims, Jews, and well Hindus who achieve notoriety for this caste system compared to the others. Unfair.

I remember years ago at an Anglo-Indian school where this teacher who had dark skin was isolated by her light-skinned peers during lunch. She was the nicest one who was very firm when she taught. You couldn't lean for a crutch or wait for her to burnout. It wasn't her dark skin that made her great but that she wasn't part of the circle or the upbringing of those teachers who learned the English style of teaching. She was a math teacher who occasionally watched us young 5 years old during lunch. She was very overqualified for the job she was taking. I surrendered my insecurity to her and actually remember some things because she was calm and strong. The others are either bitchy or nice but waiting to explode when you do something wrong.

This type of learning creates an emotional imbalance psychological that so many Hindu priests complain about Western psychology and what it does to the Hindu brain. Most Westernized Indians will take the Herschel Walker approach of multiple personalize everything. Then there is me who tries stick to one thing that I'm good at. Either way, you are niching for something or someone and you are still lost. You try to teach others but you are constantly frustrated in their inability to get your application without force because English style teaches you to control and manipulate people for your own purposes. Now for those who can balance your learning of both cultures and apply it warmly and patiently, consider yourself blessed!

I got into sports because it had integration co-ed appeal. However, if you see the marketing of Chris Evert and Tracy from the 80's, it is a symbol of racial segregation that all female athletes today try to aspire regardless of color. Of course, these white girls always get the credit and Richard is right on that one. Because they stand forAmongst: Superior White Segregation today, Superior White Segregation tomorrow, and Superior White segregation forever and rubbed it in Richard's face a little too much. However, why aspire to be like their character that you admire deep down? You just end up being their bitch. Maybe, the honesty is too much. Even non-sports segregationists religion minorities like Orthodox Muslim, Christians, Hindus, and Jews admire Chris and Tracy for their segregation image without the whiteness factor.

Yet, everybody loves Anna K. because she is good, she loses, and has charisma. Same with Brittany Spears. The more she screws up, the more she is loved because her dumb image threatens the segregated wholesome, girl character of all religions and races. You see that Lolita, I don't go for that Celine Dion and hubby crap or Jerry Lee Lewis shit but it does put that wholesome girl in her place by creating competition. It takes a big girl to see the bullshit and not have the anger but does she have the love. Image: successful man prefer the dumb. Look at Pauline Betz, she was basically the man of her home though Bob Addie could hold his own but too much to handle if you can't integrate differences within a segregated community with other competitive women.

My thing is this: if you are going to get somebody who is educated from the English system. I rather deal with the bitch American white woman than an Indian one, personally. If an Indian wants me, be honest with me and lets play contract! Pay up front or pay me off, fine. That is cruel but when Indians have the Anglo-dependency bully, I better get compensated. As for the wife, her family wants my father's legacy, clear and simple. Go get another ambitious Indian and don't play nurse with me. Don't listen to your mother or grandma about Indian male sexism. Don't play the Choice game even if America runs opposite than its ideal truth. Love and marriage is not separate but equal!

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