Segregation ambition, forever!

My parents want to get my butt married but I'm not fond of these Indian girls. Why? I don't like the surrounding people who only like me for race and my dad. The family girl's excuse is that an economic-climbing Indian man does not like another economic-climbing Indian woman? Because a man has to impress a woman and not the other way around. I find that a hard-working Indian man likes a hard-working, Indian woman. They believe in the ambitious, Anglo system of making money with two instead of one. The problem is hard-working Indian women don't like other hard-working Indian women like moms, siblings, and female peers. They put pressure on the ambitious boy to go for the passive girl because elder females don't want a female to do better than her unless she going to care and nurse for the weak male (me).

(Aarthi, you lazy bitch, get those educated girls some Indian men who are PHD with moneys. They are out there, go find it. Damn it, you are a lawyer who works off for your white bosses. Yet, you can't help Brindhi and every other good educated, Indian girl to get a man. These girls are working their butts off for their masters and Phd's and you can't help? Is there female competive issues going on with you? Showing that picture of your baby son to my face; yet you can't do the same for your family. You need to be beat and beaten hard.)

On to the issue. I have an Americanized family. They are conservative people who believe in the American way but when it comes to relationships when they want some girl from India, who has Westernized compatibility. Bullshit, man. To me, I'm American when it comes to girls. I don't believe in cheating. The girls maybe stronger, more intelligent, and everything else but I'm here and my loyalty is with them. If the girls don't want me, it is time for me to leave or find another place. But I'm not bringing an Indian here. When I tell my father and his buddies, what I want, the George Wallace shit goes up. Integration of church and state when it comes to marriage in the U.S.A.

In my family defense and others, marriage is rigidly segregated by race and faith. George Wallace should have done the speech about marriage first because it is still the biggest institution that is segregated. I'm not sure about education, housing, and jobs but look at dating sites as well as marriage sites and how government and corporations put money into them. Segregation makes money. I have tried the segregation way but it doesn't allow me to grow. Instead, it puts me in a middle-man position of vulnerability and dishonesty within the group (Did you know bout his mom being bi?).

I hate Indian men and women who rub that segregation to my face when they are successful at it. I can't compartment my friends, groups, and social units and then wait for an outsider to bail me out like that preacher in "Medea Goes to Jail". Another words, I'm fucked. Those segregationists Indian models don't appeal to me because there are so many secrets to hide which I can't handle and the IKKD (Indian Ku Klux Dependent) can either expose you which makes you do things reluctantly for good or bad. These bullies will jockey for position and if things go bad, they have a white sponsor to bail them. Do I? Plays with your mind and emotion.

Of course, if it is faith based, it is supposed to be okay. But a close examination reveals this: If I saw a picture of a dark skinned woman and liked her; no play for me. She is too dark. What if the girl is pudgy but with a great personality and loves sports? Nope. The Aryan ideal is maintained even amongst faith based marriage and dating sites. This causes internal segregation based on race within a faith. I have seen this in other faiths such as Christians, Muslims, Jews, and well Hindus who achieve notoriety for this caste system compared to the others. Unfair.

I remember years ago at an Anglo-Indian school where this teacher who had dark skin was isolated by her light-skinned peers during lunch. She was the nicest one who was very firm when she taught. You couldn't lean for a crutch or wait for her to burnout. It wasn't her dark skin that made her great but that she wasn't part of the circle or the upbringing of those teachers who learned the English style of teaching. She was a math teacher who occasionally watched us young 5 years old during lunch. She was very overqualified for the job she was taking. I surrendered my insecurity to her and actually remember some things because she was calm and strong. The others are either bitchy or nice but waiting to explode when you do something wrong.

This type of learning creates an emotional imbalance psychological that so many Hindu priests complain about Western psychology and what it does to the Hindu brain. Most Westernized Indians will take the Herschel Walker approach of multiple personalize everything. Then there is me who tries stick to one thing that I'm good at. Either way, you are niching for something or someone and you are still lost. You try to teach others but you are constantly frustrated in their inability to get your application without force because English style teaches you to control and manipulate people for your own purposes. Now for those who can balance your learning of both cultures and apply it warmly and patiently, consider yourself blessed!

I got into sports because it had integration co-ed appeal. However, if you see the marketing of Chris Evert and Tracy from the 80's, it is a symbol of racial segregation that all female athletes today try to aspire regardless of color. Of course, these white girls always get the credit and Richard is right on that one. Because they stand forAmongst: Superior White Segregation today, Superior White Segregation tomorrow, and Superior White segregation forever and rubbed it in Richard's face a little too much. However, why aspire to be like their character that you admire deep down? You just end up being their bitch. Maybe, the honesty is too much. Even non-sports segregationists religion minorities like Orthodox Muslim, Christians, Hindus, and Jews admire Chris and Tracy for their segregation image without the whiteness factor.

Yet, everybody loves Anna K. because she is good, she loses, and has charisma. Same with Brittany Spears. The more she screws up, the more she is loved because her dumb image threatens the segregated wholesome, girl character of all religions and races. You see that Lolita, I don't go for that Celine Dion and hubby crap or Jerry Lee Lewis shit but it does put that wholesome girl in her place by creating competition. It takes a big girl to see the bullshit and not have the anger but does she have the love. Image: successful man prefer the dumb. Look at Pauline Betz, she was basically the man of her home though Bob Addie could hold his own but too much to handle if you can't integrate differences within a segregated community with other competitive women.

My thing is this: if you are going to get somebody who is educated from the English system. I rather deal with the bitch American white woman than an Indian one, personally. If an Indian wants me, be honest with me and lets play contract! Pay up front or pay me off, fine. That is cruel but when Indians have the Anglo-dependency bully, I better get compensated. As for the wife, her family wants my father's legacy, clear and simple. Go get another ambitious Indian and don't play nurse with me. Don't listen to your mother or grandma about Indian male sexism. Don't play the Choice game even if America runs opposite than its ideal truth. Love and marriage is not separate but equal!

Eliot Spitzer: Bully or bullied

I didn't know who Eliot Spitzer from anything worth comparing except my cousin trying to bait me into a Mel Gibson rage. Now that his sex scandal odyssey is going to full bloom, I'm starting to read about him. The more I read, the more I like his work as a politician. Granted, I only read the Internet articles about him. My connection is from this Janus savings fund that I have. I want to give him another look. He could be a bully amongst bullies in a war for power. Yet, I feel that he is being railroaded because he stepped on some toes a little too hard and this scandal is a way to get back at him.

A few years ago, a big scandal occurred between stocks and saving bonds industry. All I know, my Janus went downhill fast from the 13 or 14 grand that I put into and went to 5 grand and lower. My father told me to take it out but I decided to ride it out (really, I was just too lazy to go over the phone and call). Also, a co-worker gave this observation about good stock companies overcoming scandals, bad management, and incompetent workers if they have the core that made it good in the first place. Finally, he told me one important advice: when the stock is going good, sell it for 50 percent more the original price you bought the stock. I thought he said take that money for your purpose or buy more affordable stocks. Not sure?

Back to the man. As Attorney General of New York, he pushed against corporations who abused their power and money privileges amongst CEO's. Corporations like Enron were falling from existence due to their exposure of this abuse. The man had balls. He went after the Gambino mafia family, stock institutions of Merrill Lynch as well as others, and some guy who who ran the NYSE (New York Stock Exchange). Some he won and some he lost. I heard he was a smart, brilliant guy who married a Southern Belle from the Carolinas with brains. I like how he uncovered record companies who withheld money to musicians for a whopping 50 million.

Around 1998 and working at PBS TV affiliate in Charlotte. Carolina Business Review with Chris William was a program produced there. He didn't introduced the idea but he was the one who put a whole show about corporate welfare and white collar crimes. Until that time, you only heard about corporate welfare from those books collecting dusts or reference sections at colleges or maybe local libraries where a catalog mentioned it. That was around 1997, it was certainly an eye opener for me because until that time, my thought was that welfare was only abused by the poor and needy instead of the rich and needy.

Back to the scandal. He did not use state money to fund his prostitution ring like some mayors of the past (I'm from Atlanta). Shoot, it was only one woman and she was over 20. News reports aren't very clear of what the issue is. I don't care about problems that causes his state to be in debt when he promised a debt free state. Those can't be blamed on one single person and he was just elected governor two years back. You have media guys like "Bueller" who make non-sense stuff about his morals(go see the troops). Now, that Mr. Spitzer resigned from the Governor's position, I'm trying to find out why.

You remember, the movie, Goodfellas, and the Ray Liotta character of Henry Hill. He kept reiterating to that he couldn't lead the mafia because he had Irish ancestry even though he was a brilliant mobster. I kind of get that vibe from Mr. Spitzer. I don't why. Yet, I don't get that shuffle feel of going inside/out of the family. He is part of a larger community instead of a dependent Mafioso to corporate society. To me, that is a leader who is making and doing things right. He is not afraid of outsiders nor insiders involving his leadership. I think the media who are for and against his scandal really don't talk about his work which tells me in a backhand way, he is a threat to their corporate dependency.

My dilemma is trying to decide if he is a bully being bullied or a leader being bullied? Where are his so-called peers? I certainly don't want to make out to be Jesus Christ because jury is still out about whether he is a leader or another bully amongst bullies. His fast resignation may indicates that he is a leader being rail-roaded out of town or a cover-up for more scandals. Usually in a compromising situation, you see family or fraternity members step-in but none have except his wife. I just think he needs another look.

Jenn Hildreth rules!

Around 2005, I saw Jenn Hildreth do interviews during a ACC basketball game. Man, I thought she was boring to hear and watch. It was as if Julie Haggerty was doing sports. Her coverage of the 2005 ACC Men's tournament was attrocious. As the years went by, you can see improvement due to her shows covering each teams in various sports for women and men in the south. Her talent has gotten a lot better than those years. FSN knew better and stuck with her. People always praised her work ethic which has been there from the get go. Her confidence just grew. Maybe, she has a family to get her over the top.

Last week, I was listening to a game between Clemson and Maryland. Jenn was doing the intro and talking about the match up. I took for granted she was going to do the game with Mike Gminiski or a former player. When the game started, she was doing the sideline and the half-time show while Mike Gminiski and Tim Brando were doing the game. I'm disappointed because her abilities has outgrown her work as a sideline reporter.

I hope she gets a chance somewhere to do basketball or other sports (she was a soccer player in college). Are you listening ESPN? Maybe she can give Digger a run for his money. I requested her to be the broadcaster for the Atlanta Dream. I hope it is not too late. I thinks she is better than those "whiny guy" profile that you read in Kate Clinton columns.

Hindu religion survival?

My oldest sister and I had a telephone discussion. We are not exactly in great terms. When we talk, we end up giving each other third degrees forthe most part. The why and how is for a another day. One of the topics that came up is religion particularly the Hindu religion and their survival for generations.

My thought is this: America is a Judeo-Christian society! Hindu tribal culture cannot thrive here because money is not invested into that culture and if you invest, it is only for a generation before intermarriage and then blending into the dominant culture begins. Can Hindus be themselves for generations? Definitely, but you have to love other Hindus and bring them from India in bunches to your tribe. Most Hindus love their own family but not other Hindus which causes stife and lack unity when it comes to power. To be successful in America, you have to have to be Judeo-Christian appeal to survive because Indians don't own ethics and culture in corporations, entertainment, and government institutions like schools, hospitals, and churches (Don't give me that crap! No such thing as seperation).

Now, nobody likes Chrisitians or Jews. But a person of color who is one gets isolated real quick. So, you have to play the Crypto game of pretending you are a Hindu. The white ones, you leave them alone because they give you jobs even if they are assholes. Their a lot of temples in America being set up as we speak. Yet, most of those kids nor their parents cannot understand or want to understand Vedic literature nor the religious dogma unless they are being spoon-fed the info. You are not Hindu but Judeo-Christian subs!

A League for their own

I play ALTA tennis here in Atlanta for a year. The opponent fans that I'm impressed with are the Koreans that follow their teams. There are many Korean teams in that league but the support they give is the same. Very uniformed and coordinated when they cheer. Very positive to their teams. There is no ebb and flow very sustained.

Unfortunate that these Koreans don't have a facility to cheer a team. There is no colleges for Koreans with an athletic program like you see with black colleges. Not only Koreans but Indians, Chinese, Thai, Vietnamese, Middle Easterners and others. I'm not sure how to start a college or if I even want to start one. But I do want to see these minorities attend sporting events in a big league fashion. (By the way, how come there isn't a college for Hispanics when there is so many of them and bilingual education is in demand).

Maybe not a college. One thing, college sports are difficult to maintain in smaller venues without sponsors and consistent alumni support (which creates sponsorships as well as winning) Second, where I'm going to find players who would come to a school and sacrifice his or her ambitions to go to a better known school which has better academic standing. Finally, those parents will come after me hard for taking away focus from their studying kids.

Hmmm, maybe a pro-league of some sport just for those folks. I try to keep a small schedule maybe seasonal. An industrial league, a bank league, a corporate league, hospital league, industrial complex league, or some league? Very costly and hard to get the word out as well as hard to pay players. I just want to give those folks a platform to cheer. A pro-league?

I don't like the big leagues where it feels large and alienating. The players make it fun but the owners, ticket folks, sales people, managers, vendors, MEDIA, and clannish fans just don't make you feel welcome as an individual. They are not engaging and are to themselves. Sometimes, they harass you and feel entitled to be prejudiced towards you if you try to engage with them with the action. The male Chris Everts' bitches ask questions to get an edge or just be bitches for the millionth time. The "Where are you from?" is standard asking like the police. They look at you as a criminal. Ah I know, "it is their job or you don't know them or they don't know you" card. Whatever, this is a public venue of a public event or events. Where is Bill Veeck?.

You have to come "posse style" for them to back off. But, you really lose your passion to cheer for your team. It is not only with Major Leagues but Minors too. You can talk about ticket costs or "the players you can't identify with bull" but the "cliquesareus" is the biggest problem in the BIGS. That is why I find it unfortunate that these Koreans cheering for their tennis teams, can't do it on a bigger stage. Maybe that is good thing because it is not all about money but the sport.